lts my fault that he cheated

Today I caught him again. He was with that girl from the coffee house. She looked very shy. I cannot believe she is seeing some stranger she met at her work, a stranger wearing an engagement ring. But then again, she might not have noticed or he might have just hidden it like everything else. when I called him he said he was at the hospital attending to his friend who met with an accident the afternoon. We both knew the truth. But i could say nothing. Because I'm too weak to fight. I was too drowned in fear of losing him.

I remember the last time he cheated on me. I checked the message on his phone. I found her text. She was a high school student, he was probably her first boyfriend. I asked him about this girl. But he got mad at me for checking his phone. I cried and i shouted at him. He said he was sorry and I'm free to leave him. He said he did that because i changed. Because I'm not understanding enough. Because i don't trust him. Because i didn't love him enough. Because I'm jealous and insecure. Because he loves me. He cheated because it was my fault. And I begged him not to go. I begged him not to leave me.

Its the fourth time i caught him. Yet i did nothing. Because today again I'll forgive him again and start anew. I'll be begging and crying. You are right love. Yes , it's my fault that you cheated.